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The Boracay Rain and its blessings :)

Pardon my being emotional, pardon my being cheesy. But I want to be able to tell you thank you for the rest of my life. Writing it down is my only way how. This will be long, I am sure of it. I will not offer you an out though because it’s important for you to know how much I appreciate and love you. :)

Truth of the matter is going to Boracay to celebrate my birthday this year and basically have a vacation is a spontaneous decision I made last February. I never thought that, that spur of the moment thing will result to something much more than it offered back then.

So I want to say thank you. I want to thank you individually not in person but through this. It’s not that I am stone-hearted in person it’s just that I am always lost for words every time.

1. To my awesome parents, Hi mom and dad! Especially to my mom who likes snooping around my facebook page I know you will see this at sana basahin niyo rin. We just ate dinner. It’s an awesome dinner by the way. (Lechong baboy, Paksiw na lechon, Lumpiang Gulay, and so many more..) Maraming, maraming salamat po. I know that you guys were half-hearted when you sent me to Boracay with Tutoy, especially that you have to spend so much. The truth is my birthday wasn’t really the intended purpose of me going there. I needed to be away because I had to make crucial decisions and nurse my broken heart. I am sorry that I had to lie about my real purpose. Things like that I really don’t have an idea on how to say. And the gift that you just gave me is all too much.. (iPhone 4S) Pasensiya na mom that we had to fight a week before I left. I was really in so much pain. I didn’t have the strength to keep my mouth shut. Sorry po talaga and yes Dad, I think tama ka that at some point, I am a brat. I will try to change my ways. Salamat po for being extra patient with me. I love you to bits and pieces mom and dad.
2. To my sister, sorry wasn’t able to pick up your call. Don’t worry though I know that you’re only wishing the best things for me. Saying that I am the “best” friend, sister, daughter, whatever is all too kind. Nonetheless, I promise to keep the traits that you find essential and try to change my mean temper. Thank you.
3. To my bestest best friend in the world Cler, thank you for throwing me an awesome beach birthday party! Thank you! I know that we haven’t been together as much as we did before. You busy with school and I busy with work. But with our own circumstances, nothing has really changed. Kaya mahal kita. Sobrang salamat talaga!
4. To my forever seatmate and extra good friend Chee and Chachi, you don’t have to thank me for offering my place or whatever. Syempre, I’d do it. No questions asked. Because I know that if I were in the same position, you’d do the same for me. Right? hehe Chee thank you for being coming with me to the beach even though you didn’t want to get extra dark. Thank you for the kwentos and allowing me to rant it really did help. Chachi, thank you for making time to celebrate my birthday with me kahit na you didn’t have that much sleep. I really appreciate it. Sobrang salamat.
5. To my forever Lab Tin and Wooj, thank you for coming and celebrating my birthday with me kahit na may kasama pa kayo na iba niyong friends. You found time to accommodate me and my superficial wishes. Haha! Thank you also for letting me drink your beer/s even though it’s really hard to get a new bottle. Some people might think this is shallow but I find it very touching. :)
6. To my “Vacation Boyfriend” Nick and your awesome pogi boyfriend Pao, oh god! Thank you! Thank you so, so, so very much! Thank you for making my birthday so memorable. Nick, I’d never ever take your offered “out” for the friendship. And I am actually serious when I said that I’d go to your house if I have to just to say hi. I love you. When you told me that when it rains on your birthday it’s a sign of blessing and it rained hard. The truth is whether it rained or not, I will always consider myself blessed because I have met you and Pao, and the 20 year old looking 20 something years old girls. hahaha thank you for the wonderful conversations. I will never offer you an out. You guys are basically stuck with me for the rest of your lives. Haha! To Marrah, Gela and Philip, thank you for celebrating with me! Party continues here in Manille!
7. To my adorkable roommates, Johnrie, JP, Mark, and Nico, thank you for making my nights as entertaining as my days. :) Sorry if I always laugh hahaha even though you don’t find yourselves as funny as the way I find you guys. Thank you for everything especially on those days that I’d get super drunk here in Manila. I love you guys so much. Please don’t ever hesitate to ask for my help because I’d always help you in a heart beat even if you didn’t ask for it.
8. To the people who gave their best wishes for me, maraming maraming salamat! You are all too kind! I wish only for the best things for you. Thank you for gracing me with your friendship. :)
9. To the waiters, baristas, the owners of the hotel that I stayed at and to the couple that I rode with on my flight in, thank you for the extra good food, thank you for the extra hard drinks, thank you! It is all too generous of you. I hope your kindness will be as strong and beautiful as your smiles. I wish you guys the best of everything.
10. To Buding, Jem, Allan, and Dane, thank you! I know that if you had a way to get to Boracay you’d be there without me even asking. Thank you so very much! I love you! Beer on me :)
11. Last, but certainly not the least, to my best friend Poxy, How are you love? You don’t have to say sorry because you weren’t able to make a personal letter to me. I know how busy you are there. Okay, I actually don’t know but I kind of have an idea from all the Military/Navy documentaries I watch. I love you so so much and I am very sure that if you were here you’d surely be with me in Boracay and getting all crazy with me. I drank for you too. I know it didn’t do much for you but I hope that at one point it would offer you a slight elation that we were able to celebrate your birthday kahit nagsiswim ka sa base. I love you. To my Kai, the bitchfriend of my life, take a shot for me today! Send me the bill. I love you! I wish you were here. Thank you for the friendship. Sana hindi ka magsawa sa akin. :)

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! :)

Click on the link! For Boracay 2012! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v9zuDoZCVWw

When everything is as hard as it could possibly be, who will be brave enough to stand up? To stand up.. for me?

okay this should be almost over. im getting a headache from everything that ive doing both wrong and right.

and when everything has been said and done, the only thing between us is history. no more present. no more future. strangers with memories of each other. ‘tis be good but no more amends to make. goodbye little one. don’t forget me. :’)